PATIENCE: Coming to Terms With It

PATIENCE. 

Noun; the capacity to accept or tolerate delay, trouble, or suffering without getting angry or upset.

Patience…a word that is easily understood but so hard to implement on a consistent basis in our day-to-day lives. When some people run into an ‘obstacle’ that delays their “greater goal” (could be anything…you’re probably already thinking of something), they seem to get upset and might give up or lose that motivation they had previously. I’ll admit it, I get stuck in these ruts sometimes but always seem to find a way back to as close as a ‘level head’ as possible. For me, my ‘faith’ in Christianity and knowing that I’m just merely doing my best always having a ‘listening ear’ on what God wants me to do.

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For my “Non-Believers”, I know what you’re probably thinking…”Here we go again with this GOD stuff…”, “GOD doesn’t exist..I have total control over my life and actions”, “What if there isn’t a god at the end?”.  I totally get it…I was there. These are all valid questions that create for excellent dialogue. In dialogue, I don’t mean the forcing of mindsets/”evangelization”…that’s not okay. Before I go a little further, I want to just mention a thought whenever I see/hear this “You vs. Us”, “Saved vs. Unsaved”, etc…I always try to think…”What would Jesus do in that situation?”. In those situations, I think Jesus would share his thoughts and wish the best for them and not stir up anger in them. I think this is an ideal model in how we go about talking about “hard topics” such as Religion, Politics, etc… (all the topics that people tell you not to talk).

Getting back where I left off, It’s good to question. I remember always asking a lot of questions of “why this…” and/or “what is that?”, etc. This exploration with your mind is so fruitful and lets you actually immerse yourself and make a choice based on what you’re feeling or called for. In my case…I questioned, felt confused a lot, and struggled. In the end though, I found the experience very comforting…which leads me back to PATIENCE.

Having the strength to go through trials/delays in your “goals” you want to achieve is definitely hard, but can be quelled in trying to find the positive and/or believing there is a ‘greater plan for you. As in the Bible verse above (Proverbs 3:5-6), give ‘everything you got’ (mentally at least) to God…and all things will work out in the end (Probably at a better time than you expected also). I believe that God always has the best intentions for us all, and that comforts me.

In my previous mind (Non-Religious), I always tried to find the ‘positives’ in times of delay. I can vividly remember when I was applying for Graduate schools in California while I was a Junior at the University of California – Santa Barbara (UCSB) and getting really discouraged that I was getting rejection after rejection…It hurt to read “We regret to inform you that…”. That’s all I had to read. I can remember that this process went on for a few months and I realized that rather than sitting moping on my rejections, just keep applying…SOMETHING will land. It did…but not till right after graduation. I remember getting a phone call saying I was accepted to Roger Williams University. The next day, I also received an ACCEPTANCE to Seton Hall University.

In my mind, I had nothing really holding me to my town I lived my life from 4th grade to college….and I was ready for the next chapter of my life. I accepted my offer for Roger Williams University and I was at peace and finally was able to take a ‘deep breath’ of relief. Long story short, I don’t know if I would’ve been in the ‘mental space’ if I got accepted to any of the California schools. Additionally, I would’ve never met awesome friends for life in Rhode Island, my girlfriend, and wouldn’t be at my current job either. Things end up working for the better….we just got to be PATIENT.

Finding My Way To The Cross

‘Peter said to them, “Repent and be Baptized, everyone of you, in the name of Jesus Christ for the forgiveness of your sins; and you will receive the holy Spirit. For the promise is made to you and to your children and to all those far off, whomever the LORD our GOD will call.’ Acts 2:38-39

Oh how far I’ve come since my last entry discussing my ‘spiritual journey’. Needless to say, I’ve made great strides and am now an official “full” member of the Catholic Church! (Baptism, Confirmation, 1st Communion…*Confetti goes off*). In my experiences reading and writing, i’ve seem to enjoy having the ‘ending’ first and then starting at the beginning…to help give the reader a sense of where this trail ends.

After having enough of a grasp on the ‘basics’ of Catholicism, I signed up for Rights of Christian Initiation of Adults (RCIA) at St. Kevin’s Church in September 2019. I remember getting ready for my first class and being super excited for learning and growing my faith deeper. Here are some of the topics we covered in my RCIA classes:

  • Apostle’s Creed
  • Nicene-Constantinopolitan Creed
  • Books of the Bible
    • Old Testament
    • New Testament
  • Jewish History Family Tree
    • Jacob/Sarah
      • Ishmael, Isaac/Rebecca…
  • Map of the Holy Land
  • Catholic Catechism
    • “I Believe – “We Believe”
    • “I Believe in Jesus Christ, the Only Son of God”
    • Virgin Mary
    • Miracles of Jesus
    • Temptation of Jesus vs. Temptation of Abraham
    • ……..so much!

Navigating through these lessons, attending Sunday mass (consistently), playing worship songs on the guitar more, and making an effort to read the daily mass readings, I’ve grown substantially….which leads me to Easter Vigil morning (4/20/19). We had early morning rehearsal running through where we sit, stand, say, etc. In my mind it seemed like it went on for 30 minutes thinking/perfecting everything so I didn’t look like a fool in front of the congregation. In reality, the rehearsal was only about 15 minutes and all that was left was the Easter Vigil itself.

As I’m getting ready putting on my Tan suit pants, I start to go into a whirlwind of emotions….Happy…Anxious…Excited…Nervous…Proud…and most importantly not forgetting what I have to say to Father Marciano! I compose myself and put my emotions at bay and we drive over to the church.

The Mass: 

We enter into a dark church (symbolizing the darkness of the tomb), genuflect, enter and sit in the pews. We get instructed to look at the back entrance of the church and Father Marciano brought in a FIRE PIT….I guess he literally took the scripture literally, but part of me was wondering, hoping, and praying that the church didn’t catch fire! Thankfully, it didn’t and they lit the candle and passed it off to the front row (us) and we lit the church up ROW BY ROW. It was a beautiful sight to see a dark church filled with candle light. We then proceeded to honor the ‘light of the LORD” until they reached the altar.

They then proceeded to read several readings from Exodus, Genesis, Isaiah, etc. This part seemed very long, but this was very important to set the foundation for GOD’s love for us and sacrificing his Only Begotten Son, Jesus Christ to die for our sins and Salvation. After the reading of the Gospel…it was showtime for us! I got Baptized, Confirmed, and received 1st communion! The joy I felt is indescribable. The warmth in my heart to know that i’m now with God (Spiritually, of course)….is such a comforting feeling I wish everyone can feel at some point in his/her life.

Dedications: 

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(I attribute a lot of my spiritual journey to Deacon J. Fulton. The conversations I had with him throughout the course of the RCIA classes, have been so invaluable and I can only wish to aspire to be a man of faith like he is.)

Life Update 1.0

Wow, so it’s been a bit since I blogged…but i’m back! To sum up my time away, it’s just been pure & utter business. First of all:

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I started my final year (2 semesters) of my Masters in Public Administration (MPA). I had to take the summer off due to needing to be “full-time” in order to get financial aid. As a person who’s been consistently in school for so long, it was weird/enjoyable taking a break from school. Unfortunately, it took me a few weeks to get back into the swing of things…but I’m now back in the drivers seat back to the grind! I’m taking a research class for my capstone project (final project) and Public Budgeting & Finance this semester.

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I also finished up and closed my Internship at the Rhode Island Office of Innovation. It was quite the experience to be working with such diligent and dedicated public servants in trying to detangle the beaurocratic web of government with INNOVATION & COLLABORATION. I’m thankful for my time there, the relationships/connections I made, and everyone has a special place in my heart.

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In happy/sad news….my 2000 Volvo V70 Stationwagon finally had enough and decided to give me more than I could handle ($3,000+ in things to fix on a Kelly Blue Book value $500 car). With the help of my parents (via telephone), I went to a used-car dealer and found this beauty! This is my new car! It’s a 2012 Volvo (what a surprise) S60 T5. It’s a great car and i’m honoured and blessed to be in a position to get a car like this with the help of my parents!

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I also started up a new season of Indoor Football (Soccer for you Americans…) with my squad (not all pictured). This picture was taken after a win. FC Golacticos is the team name, and i’m the goalkeeper. For those who don’t know me…I love football. From watching it (Chelsea & Celtic) and playing it. it’s a passion that I’ll carry on for my entire life most likely.

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I also went to Providence WaterFire for the first time in my almost 3 years of living here in Rhode Island. I somehow thought that there was more to this, but regardless….it was prety neat and I managed to snag some awesome pictures with my Cannon Rebel T1i (as pictured above).

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I also got ‘nominated’ and selected by the American Society for Public Administrators (ASPA) to be on the November ballot for the position of “Student Representative”. It’s quite the honor that I even made it this far. I’m currently in the process of putting together my candidate information and hoping for the best. Regardless of the results of the election, I’m just happy I had the opportunity and honour of representing my school and ASPA chapter in National ASPA!

I also hope to stay consistent on this…. (keyword HOPE).

Here are some upcoming TRIPS/Adventures that are coming soon:

  • Rhode Island Value Based Leadership Conference (@ Providence College)
  • RI – ASPA Fall Colloquium (Ret. Judge Edward Clifton – Social Justice)
  • New England Conference on Public Administration (NECOPA) (@ University of Vermont, Burlington).

 

Portland, Maine

Last Saturday (September 26th, 2017), to celebrate my girlfriend finishing her Masters in Social Work (MSW) and myself starting my final year of my Masters in Public Administration (MPA)….I decided to take her up to Portland, Maine. I’ve been there previously before, but didn’t really devote enough time to this beautiful coastal city.

We headed out from Warwick, Rhode Island at 7:30am on an empty stomach excited for our New England Day-venture. We arrived hungry and found a really popular breakfast place called Marcy’s Diner (47 Oak St. Portland, Maine 04101). We parked and arrived at our destination and was told that it’d be an hour wait. To kill time, we talked about how hungry we were, talked about places we needed to go to before we made the long trek home, and looking and playing with this puppy that was so adorable. The wait ended up being about an hour and a half, but it was so worth the wait and the “hype”.

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I got a 8oz steak (medium rare), two over-easy eggs, hash browns, 2 toasted Rye bread slices served with a “fresh squeezed” Lemonade with a shot of peach flavor (Highly recommend the lemonade) and my girlfriend got “Silver dollars” (Pancakes that ended up being 3x the size of a “Silver Dollar) Bacon, Sunny-side-up Eggs, Hobo Hash (hash browns with Jalepenos and cheese….highly recommend also) and a coffee. It was a nice, cute, small, diner that definitely hit the spot!

With our stomach’s content, we decided to hit up one of the main places that motivated me to come back to Portland once again…..The Holy Donut (7 Exchange St. Portland, Maine 04101). These donuts are made up of 100% Maine Potato and are literally to die for. Be sure that you go and get your desired number of donuts before they run out, because they close once they have sold out of their donuts for the day! Words cannot describe how great these donuts are….you just have to experience them yourself!

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We then started to walk around the city a bit admiring the beautiful view of the ocean from the docks, popping into random gift stores for souvenirs, Looking at the building artwork around the downtown area, and enjoying the positive vibes Portland, Maine had to offer us.  We also even found a chowder house named after my girlfriend’s dad!!! (not really, but we found it funny to share with him when we got back).

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After walking around a bit, we decided that we wanted Lobster Rolls. When in Maine, YOU HAVE TO have a lobster roll….It literally doesn’t get any more “fresh” and “authentic” than a “Maine Lobster” in Maine. We went on Yelp and found a place in Fort Williams Park in Cape Elizabeth, Maine that had 5 STARS 381 Reviews called Bite Into Maine (1000 Shore Rd. Cape Elizabeth, Maine 04107). Before we went to get Lobster Rolls, we noticed that in Fort Williams Park, there was a lighthouse that’s a popular tourist destination called Portland Head Lighthouse.

This lighthouse started construction in 1790 and was first lit on January 10th, 1791, which makes it Maine’s oldest lighthouses. It’s also one of the “most photographed lighthouses” in the United States of America. Knowing this, we decided to work up an appetite and partake in the standard tourists activities. Needless to say, I was finally able to use my new Cannon T1i Rebel DSLR camera to it’s full capability and ended up with a “desktop worthy” picture in my humble opinion (I photoshopped a boat and people on the cliff rails). I highly recommend that you make a concerted effort to drive 5-10 minutes outside of downtown Portland for this United States historical gem.

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Back to the food! After jumping down rocks and nearly almost sacrificing my camera for the “Candid shot”, we worked up an appetite and finally made our trek back to Bite Into Maine. This ended up being a “Food truck” which is lugged around by a vehicle and put there in the same exact spot every single time. You’re probably thinking…Lobster….Food Truck….. disgusting/unsanitary right? WRONG. I’m afraid to admit that being in New England for 3 YEARS…I haven’t enjoyed a bite of a lobster roll. This was my first experience and boy……..it was probably one of THE BEST things i’ve ever had in my life. The buttered/grilled roll in my honest opinion made the meal. Of course the lobster was soft and just impeccable. Even my girlfriend who was born and raised in New England said it was THE BEST lobster roll she has ever had….and that’s saying a lot. Needless to say, GO GO GO GO GO if you’re in the area.

I got the Lobster Roll “Connecticut style” Just melted Butter and my girlfriend got the Lobster Roll “Picnic Style” with Coleslaw and Butter (I think..). You can’t really go wrong with any of the different “Styles” they offer. They’re all delicious Lobster Rolls filled with a FRIENDLY serving of 4.5oz of AMAZING/SOFT Maine Lobster CHUNKS.  I don’t think it can get any more “New England” with Lobster Rolls, accents, and the Portland Head Lighthouse prominently erect on the coastal view.

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With our stomach’s completely satisfied and happy, we hit the road and started our drive back to Rhode Island. I’m so happy that I made this trip again, and we’re definitely coming back for more Lobster Rolls………FOR SURE.

“Wherever you go, go with all your heart.” -Confucious 

 

 

 

My Journey from Non-Spirituality to Spirituality

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I know and understand that Religion is a “hot button” issue for many in today’s modern society… but the truth of the matter is that it should’ve never even gotten to this stage of hostility and voodoo. Here in the United States of America, Religion is protected by the constitution says in 1st Amendment that:

Congress shall makeno law respecting an establishment of religion, or prohibiting the free exercise thereof; or abridging the freedom of speech, or of the press; or the right of the people peaceably to assemble, and to petition the Government for a redress of grievances.

Growing up, Religion was really never a ‘strong’ entity in my life whatsoever. I attended the sporadic ‘youth group’ events during high school with friends but outside of that I never attended church weekly nor did I ever really never even associated myself with any religion in general. Maybe it was the combination of the lack of my family being religious and/or me being just a stereotypical “emotional/angsty” teenager…regardless of that, that was me during that “chapter” of life.

For those that don’t know me, I can get very deep with myself and find myself in a whole different arena in my mind. I remember typing up an essay during my 1st (out of 2 years) year at the University of California – Santa Barbara (UCSB) at the Santa Ynez apartments and suddenly getting the urge to take my bike and go to “Sands Beach”. It was there where I started asking myself questions like “what if there is something greater out there?”, “What is my sole purpose of why i’m here on this earth?”, and much more. It was then where I started my spiritual journey and started accepting the grace of god in my life. My belief was very weak and being held onto by it’s whims…but the thought of accepting religion into my life was slowly becoming a thought.

Fast forwarding to the current day, my faith has not only been strengthened, but also has slowly simmered into my daily life. After attending mass for the first time with my girlfriend (If you’re reading this I love you 😊), where I became inspired to make and try to strengthen my relationship with god.

At the base of religion, I feel it’s just basic human understanding of how we go about being citizens on this world. Additionally I learned a lot of “basic” characteristics through the Boy Scouts of America. I’m also a proud Eagle Scout and servant of the Boy Scouts of America since the age of five years old. The scout law says:

A scout is Trustworthy, Loyal, Helpful, Friendly, Courteous, Kind, Obedient, Cheerful, Thrifty, Brave, Clean, and Reverent.

Entering the “Religious arena” with this mindset has equipped me well with a good head start and good head on my shoulders. This is just the beginning of my spiritual journey. I’m excited to see what god has in store for me, but in the meantime..i’ll just keep on doing what I love and hustling for a better and brighter future for myself.

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Reflection on New Beginnings

It’s a common notion that most people don’t tend to steer too far away from their places of birth, loved ones, and familiarity. Let me clarify by saying this isn’t bad by any stretch. We all have different lives, experiences, and support groups that shape us into the person we are today. Individuality is something that makes this world so beautiful and unique.

As a person who was born & raised in California, It’s very common for people to stay in relatively close distance or even still in the state. I think it’s fair to say that this is a benign phenomena globally. After finding out that I was accepted into Roger Williams Universities Masters in Public Administration (MPA) program, I found myself on a plane from Los Angeles International Airport (LAX) to TF Green Airport in Warwick, Rhode Island. I even managed to snap a picture with the former President of the United States of America…Barrack Hussein Obama (Not really…but a life size cardboard cut out is good enough for me!).

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As I was flying 60,000 feet up in the air, I started pondering and coming to the reality that I was leaving everything I knew so well behind me. I was entering a ‘new chapter’ in my life with a new location, no friends, no family….just me, two suitcases filled with clothes, a glimmer of hope/nervousness/excitement/everything that I adjust quickly and accordingly. This scared me, but I knew that I had to get myself out of my ‘comfort zone’ and try something new.

Here’s a list of things that helped me acclimate to a new environment:

  • Don’t be afraid to introduce yourself to someone
  • Say “Hi” and meet your neighbors
  • Do a sporadic road trip somewhere you’ve never been
  • Download MeetUp and find a group near you that fancies your niche/interests
  • Don’t be afraid to do things that are “touristy” (i.e. Del’s, Iggy’s, Newport, etc.)
  • Walk around and explore your new area on foot
  • Find a Community Facebook group for your city of residence
  • Go to a sporting event (i.e. Red Sox, Paw Sox, Patriots, Celtics, Bruins, Prov. Bruins, etc)
  • Find yourself “Spiritually” and build a relationship with God and Jesus Christ
  • Snap, Snap, Snap! Buy a camera, and start taking documenting wherever you go

My list isn’t really that extensive due to my graduate studies, but these are just some of things that I managed to do whenever I did have ‘free time’ away from my studies.

Needless to say, I’ve eaten so much good food (I could do a food list on a later blog post if you want to read it), went to places I never thought i’d visit [Portland (Maine), Portsmouth (New Hampshire), Salem (Massachusetts), etc], met so many awesome people (some of you are maybe even reading this…Thank you. You’re a beautiful individual), and created so many memories that’ll last a long time. Here are some of the awesome people in my life (If you don’t see yourself…we need to get a picture together!)

Cheers.

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Graduate Student Testimonial

I was going through my ‘On This Day…” section on my Facebook…and stumbled upon a post from 3 years ago with me saying how I got accepted into Roger Williams University’s Masters in Public Administration (MPA) program. It’s crazy to think about how fast time flies. It’s in moments like these where I stand a little more erect and feel blessed on my forward progression as a student in academia.
Here is my story:


High School/El Camino College

I finished high school with a 2.85 GPA not knowing what I wanted to do whatsoever. I was mainly a “B” and mostly “C” kind of student with poor study habits and who really had his priorities poorly managed. I always studied the day before the exam, I never read in advance, and really never gave or presented my best work. Following graduation in 2010, I decided to go to El Camino College. Not knowing what I wanted to do, I took a lot of “General Education” courses to find my own personal niche. My poor study habits were still present. There was a few events that happened during my 3 years at El Camino that really changed my study habits and overall outlook on school.

Firstly, I remember getting a “C” in Psychology 5 in my first set of “real credit” courses. When I took a test to evaluate my English and Math skills, I placed a level right below “College level”. Courses below “college level” were not awarded for “credit”, but instead were awarded “Pass” or “Not Passing (NP).” Seeing me struggle in a general psychology class really hit me hard and made me realize I had to change my study habits if I wanted to make something out of myself.

Secondly, there were a few professors that help guide and mentor me into being not only a better student but also a more mature human being. After switching my major about 5 or 6 times, I finally realized that “History” was more than just a hobby for me. Before I dive into detail on this, I’d just like to thank the wonderful history department at El Camino College. Professors like Dr. Suarez and Dr. Verge really helped me become the student I have become today. Both of them have a special place in my heart and really made me fall in love with what history can bring to not only the “real world”, but also being a ‘culturally aware’ person.


University of California – Santa Barbara (UCSB)

After putting in some hard work, improving my study habits, and making valuable connections with some of my professors…I was able to “transfer” out of El Camino College to the University of California – Santa Barbara (UCSB) with a 3.2GPA. After mutually separating with a girlfriend of 4.5 years, becoming a new kind of “student”, and a plethora of new mental developments in my life…this was arguably the best years of my life. This is not to say that my 4.5 years with my ex-girlfriend wasn’t great…I will always be thankful and smile when looking back at that ‘chapter’ of my life.

It was here at UCSB where I could put on display my new outlook on academia and really use every second of my time there for the better. Whether it was going to office hours to just talk with my professors, spending extra time during the week in the library or some place quiet to not procrastinate on my work…I finally saw and experienced the benefits that I’ve been working on since that “C” in Psychology 5. I started getting B+ and A’s, and I started setting a higher standard for myself when it came to grades.

Not everything was positive and uplifting though. I was denied by 6 in-state programs, which all required at least 2 letters of recommendation (This was when I was thankful for creating those ‘connections’ with my professors). Getting ‘rejected’ isn’t easy. I had to constantly ‘get up’ after being kicked down…but that made me stronger. Rejection got a lot easier after each rejection. After getting up on that 6th time, I finally came to the conclusion that I had to look out of state. This concept scared me because all I knew was California my whole life. Looking back on this, I feel like this was “my plan” that god had set out for me.

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I then applied to MPA programs at Seton Hall University (Newark, New Jersey) and Roger Williams University (RWU). And it was on July 30th, 2015 when I got the call from the admissions office that I got accepted to the MPA program at Roger Williams University.


Since then I’ve been given a ‘Graduate Spotlight’ and have made so many valuable connections that will help me land a job after I graduate in May (Spring 2018).

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It’s moments like this that truly make me thankful and reaffirm my thoughts on the art of PATIENCE.

“A lack of Patience in trifling matters might lead to the disruption of great project”. -Confucius